Henry's Hospital Time

We were fortunate that we only had to stay one night (not counting the night of labor and Henry's birth) in the hospital. I was very anxious to get home this time around, to see Kellan and to just sleep in my own bed! Henry stayed in our room almost all of the time except for a few hours so that I could get a little more uninterrupted sleep (if possible). Tim and I got a lot of cuddle and bonding time with Henry. I was so worried that I wouldn't be able to love another little person as much as I love Kellan, but it's amazing how your heart just opens up and the love pours out! Here's a poem that sums it up. This came from another friend who just had her 2nd child too. (Thanks T!)

LOVING TWO

I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand,

basking in the glow of our magical relationship.
Suddenly I feel a kick from within,
as if to remind me that our time alone is limited.
And I wonder, how could I love another child as I love you?

Then she is born, and I watch you.
I watch as the pain you feel at having to share me as you have never shared me before.

I hear you telling me in your own way,
"Please love only me" and I hear myself telling you in mine "I can't."
Knowing in fact that I never can again.
You cry, I cry with you.
I almost see our baby as an intruder on
the precious relationship we once shared.
A relationship we can never have again.

But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being,
and feeling almost guilty.
I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying her
--as though I am betraying you.

But then I notice your resentment change,
first to curiosity,
then to protectiveness,
finally to genuine affection.

Already a relaxed little guy!

Swallowed up by the car seat. Ready for our trip home to Leesburg to meet the rest of the family!